Monday, August 31, 2009

My Resolution

I CAN'T POST ON BLOGGER. something happened. dang. the format is all wrong and annoying. shall back to xanga till this gets fixed!

http://thenoisylove.xanga.com

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Tired.

Drained. Tired. Sleepy. Homework. Project Work. Grad Night.

Oh God please help me. Before i drown in stress and die of emotional haemorrhage.
I'm psychic. Lately. Especially in songs. And i feel like a shell, empty inside. I don't know what's pushing me on. Sometimes it feels like i'm a person trapped in this machine thing. And there's this two holes that allow me to see what's going on outside. Luckily this machine has this cheerful programme. It's a really good cover. But inside, i feel so trapped. There's so much work stacked around me. But i can't do it. Cause it's not by my strength but His. Still learning how to depend on Him in all ways i guess.

Time is something i desperately need. Homework undone. Lack of sleep. Headaches. I don't know what i want anymore. What i'm doing. Why am i doing what i'm doing. I decide to question my decisions and decide it's better not to. Cause i'm so confused. Why is there this wall that wouldn't go away.

I can't be bothered anymore. Ruin everything we worked hard for. Cause it ain't my business.

Friday, July 17, 2009

H1N1

I don't know if i actually have H1N1. But i do know i have Influenza A which is the main category H1N1 belongs to. But whether i have that specific H1N1 strain, that i don't know. Hahaha. But i've been just sleeping and watching TV. Hahaha. Homework's not touched. I'm too giddy to do work but not giddy enough to stop me from watching tv. LOL. Ah well. I shall watch Hi5. LALALA.
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HI5!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

CTs

To be posting 3 times a day. Should figure that i must be that bored huh.

Anyways, i figured i should talk about CTs. I mean, i was stressing about it, moaning about it and basically, going crazy about it. It went pretty okay i guess. For someone who studied maybe about 2 days before the exams? Yeah. LOL. But i guess it's during this period of time that i really trust God. It was amazing. Almost as if this CTs were like a trial of some sort. Academic-wise. Hahaha. But yeah. It was a trial for me. I haven't studied and all and i totally lacked focus. All i could think about was Children's Camp and all that jazz. And then i decided to get Eunice to go Vibe on Saturday, i was like, i must be going crazy to go to Vibe just two days before my exams. But i thank God i brought her. She enjoyed herself a lot and was saying how nice our Uth people are. To Eunice: They're nice to newcomers only. Look at the way they treat me! HAHAHA. Kidding. So anyway, after she left, i stayed on. And i was really waiting for my fish. It then hit me how much i didn't study the whole day and it was almost as if i had wasted the whole day. I was going nuts. Hence the intense studying for Biology. But i really couldn't focus. I can't help going to Vibe and not helping. It irritates me somehow. LOL. Like, i can't just go there and play and talk and not serve. It's just not me. So when Jiahao wanted me to stay to help pack up, i agreed rather readily. I don't know what's going on in my mind but i told myself, if i honoured God, He will definitely honour me. So holding on to that promise, i stayed on to help clean up. I did what i could and left as soon as i could. I was very scared about being unable to finish studying what i planned to finish that day.
Sunday came and i was a wreck. I rushed home after 1st service to rest and to start work immediately. It was more fruitful i guess. And i manage to finish studying for Econs (which was the first paper) by 2am. And somehow, i had this burden to go read up on a particular chapter and made sure that i learnt it well and memorise the important points. The next day i just prayed and when i saw the question paper, i was utterly speechless. That very topic actually came out! I had a shock and i was ecstatic. Literally.
Then it actually dawned onto me. Many times we think that exams and tests are too minor things to ask God to help you and show you what to study. And yet He can show us how great He is. After all, He's the one that created everything you're being tested about now, and the person who actually set the paper ;) When you ask God to show you what to study He will really show you what to study.
He is great and mighty. Never ever forget that. Lose your focus on Him, and you'll lose focus on everything else.

Jeremiah 33:3 "Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew (show) thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not."

Hold on to that promise. And open your mouths wide, knowing He'll definitely fill it up.

For Eunice.

OMG. EUNICE GOT A JOKE TODAY AT 8:45PM 2ND JULY 2009! HAHAHAHAHAHA. We should commemorate it. Cause it's really rare.

BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

Who knew holidays would be BORING.

MICHAEL JACKSON'S DEAD.

He's so talented. This is quite sad. And his kids are so cute.

Okay. I'm bored. Wii is BORING.

Tomorrow's investiture rehearsal. MY WHOLE DAY'S GONEEEEEE. But i'm looking forward to having dinner with Eunice and Luke :D

Saturday's gone too. Grad Night meeting before Uth meeting followed by Church meeting. LOL.

SUNDAY THE LIPS ARE COMING TO MY HOUSE TO PLAY. YAY YAY YAY. I MISS THEM OH SO MUCH!

And Monday may be going out to watch Transformers. AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Suddenly, holidays don't seem so bleak no more.

AND I LOVE BOYS OVER FLOWERS :DDDDD

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

HOHO.

HAHAHAHA. NO MORE COMMONS! HAHAHAHA.

WII! HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Church Camp + Wedding

I really should be doing Math now. I'm so screwed.

Church camp
It was awesome. You know. Just spending time with church friends. I really miss all that especially when school starts.
Room 1312 is love. Roomies are love! (I'm the first photo, Bao's the second, Shan's the third.)
Prayer group is love too. The sermons were really fun and entertaining. So that made me stay awake even though i was really tired sometimes. And yet it was always so true and it always just seems to be the one i need that day. Coach rides are tres fun and having the guys as our neighbours were great because that meant food and cards and stuff. Lots of things were happening in camp. There was the birthday celebration and the midnight suppers. The shopping trip (which i couldn't go cause i was sick) and the ever-showing Totally Spies on Disney Channel. High School Musical played on one of the days and Bao and I were just screaming our lungs out. This was an interesting camp overall. I enjoyed myself. And the whole accountability thing is fab cause now we all know there are 5 people out there praying for you. And ready to encourage you or whatever. I like i love :) OVERALL, THANK GOD FOR THE MOST WONDERFUL CHURCH CAMP WITH EVERYBODY :D I didn't do any work though. EXPECTED! Only 253 photos were taken. Facebook hates me and refuses to upload.

Wedding
It was really sweet. Malcolm is super funny! He can never be serious. Their wedding vows were so MUSHY. Ohmygoodness. Like really. I stole a wind wheel home :) They had those standing all around the place. So pretty. The food was alright. I enjoyed my walk along the beach. I was chasing waves with Jay, Jiawen and Joseph. HAHAH. JJJ. Funny. But yeah. It felt really sticky after the seawater dried on my legs. Eeew. It was a starlit night. The scenic night view was beautiful too. Overall, it was great.

NOW. I have to finish that stupid question i'm stuck at for SOOOO long. Crap.

I'm chasing waves alone.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Horrible Homework.

Had Chem Lecture yesterday. And Zhu Xiaotian is back! He wore Jonathan's uniform and came into NJ. I got a huge surprise. I couldn't recognise him! Apparently he sat through our chem lecture. LOL. And even took notes. He's such a mugger. But he's going to university soon. So much faster than us! Went home to sleep and slack. I hereby declare: I hate Nghia. He keeps lying and cheating me! Idiot. Travis and i made a pact. He's gonna kill Nghia in Vietnam (for lying to me and making me tell Travis and Travis fell for it as well.) and i'm gonna kill him in Singapore. Double homicide.

Went out to "study" with Yeechin today. Hahaha. Failed at the "study"-ing part totally. Like seriously. Hahaha. Ended up just talking and catching up and all that jazz. Took photos. And i bought her a flower! She was tres surprised :) She had project stuff later on. So i told her people might mistaken her for having a boyfriend because of the pretty flower. And i changed the LED screen thingy on her LG phone to I love C. Hahaha. So i told her to tell her friends her boyfriend's name is Chace and he's the one that gave the flower. HAHAHA. And that he's from NJC. So now i'm sort-of a cool boyfriend of Yeechin's. HAHAHA. I swear. If i was guy, i'd be so hot and totally attract girls. HAHAHAHAH.

Okay. Homework's undone. Likeable or not is showing now. Shall focus on my show.


1 Jun 09, 13:44
wkb: lousy comp. cannot read avi formal :P
Charmaine: So! It's easier for everybody to read that file format okay! =p
1 Jun 09, 01:02
Bao: CAMPC AMPC AMPC AMPCAMPCMAPCMAPMCPAMC
Charmaine: YESYESYESYESYESYES :) I'M SO EXCITED! ARE YOU!

When you enter Nan Hua, you think you'll hate it.
When you leave Nan Hua, you know you'll miss it.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

No more Malay Dance practices.

No more practices until after June! Cause most of the scholars are going back to visit their family. I guess they must miss their family lots and lots. Imagine not seeing your family for 6 months! All the emotions and everything must be overflowing. But i'll really miss not having practice for so long. And i'll grow fat too! Oh dear. I'm gonna control what i eat now!
Thinking is oh-so-kind to rip the SYF DVDs and give them to me. SADLY enough, my computer can't play the file types. So i had to painstakingly search for converters to convert the videos to .wmv format so that my computer can read them. I'll be adding these file types into the thumbdrive which will be passed around because then other people who might be unable to read those file types, can still watch the videos! :) I'm so nice right. Hahahah.

There wasn't school on Wednesday. So i basically rotted at home.

Thursday i went back to school to help the IP team prepare for the SISC Cultural Matinee/Night. It was fun. Hahaha. Lots of unglam photos. I'm like, an awesome photographer. I can capture EVERYBODY'S unglam moments. Uber cool right. Hahaha. It was really fun. Especially the Matinee. Man. Saiful was so embarrassed. And we screamed really loud. All photos and videos for Thursday are all on FB :D

Friday was the Workshop thingy. The facilitator was super funny. So basically, i was entertained for like, 4 hours? Yeah. But i was really tired too. Cause there was Council GM in the morning. Like at 7.10am. Insane right. Then it was SYF Video watching at TB11. We actually made so many mistakes! But we managed to pull through and still get a Gold with Honours! :) It was fun watching videos with everyone. We laughed and laughed. I like :) I left for Dental after watching the IP team and JC team videos. NO MORE BRACES! :D Now my teeth is so wonderfully straight. Yay. But i'm not really used to how i look yet. I think i look weird. GWEN HWARNG AND SHAIRAH RAMAZAN, BE JEALOUS. HAHAHAHAHAH! I'm so evil. I like. And no Gwen, i don't miss my braces. Because now i can eat freely without worrying about food getting stuck in my braces. Heh heh heh. Had xteam's Potluck after that. Great time of feasting and all :) And celebrating Andrea's birthday! Okay i know i said the wrong age for Michelle. But hey. Being young isn't a crime. HAHAHA. Was really really very tired after all that and went home after teaching Kau a bit of Chinese (and insulting/teasing/laughing at her as well).

Last part of the Blueprint was on Saturday. So i'm sort of graduated already. Hahaha. Even though i missed like 4 lessons? Hahaha. I'll go for make-up okay. I can't help being busy! Went out for dinner with LIPS after that. Man i miss them so much :) Even though it was a very short time, i had so much fun just laughing and talking. And teasing Kristel. Photos will be on FB soon. I promise. Then i rushed out MD Seniors' cards. I'm glad they liked it. Hahaha.

Church today. Wore my new dress :) So happy. Hahaha. I like it too. And Jiahao, FYI, i'm always pretty okay. What exceptionally pretty today! Crazy. It's NOT the gold hairband. It's ME. Crap you. Went to watch some Malay Dance thing. Not bad. A bit boring cause i didn't understand a single word. Except the occasional Malay word that i hear every now and then. Hahaha. AND EUNICE WORE THE DRESS. Her mum TOTALLY APPROVES OF ME NOW. Seriously. She said when her mum saw her with the dress, the conversation kinda went like this:

*Sees Eunice with dress*
Eunice's mum: Wah. Know how to shop already ah.
Eunice: Hmm.
Eunice's mum: Went out with who?
Eunice: Charmaine
Eunice's mum: Hmmm. (in an approve-of-friend tone)

HAHAHA. I BET HER MUM IS SO HAPPY WITH ME FOR MAKING HER DAUGHTER GET A DRESS. WILLINGLY! YAY! I'm so proud of me. OMG. It's even more amazing a feat than getting 8 for O levels. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I thought i'd never live to see the day where Eunice wears a dress! I WAS WRONG. But i'm glad to be wrong this time round. Hahaha. Felt a bit bad cause we were supposed to perform for the event and the Guest-of-Honour really wanted to watch our performance. He even mentioned us in his speech! But we didn't perform in the end. And yet still turned up to show our faces. Hahaha. But whatever. He can watch the SYF Videos which i will upload on Facebook later on =p Proceeded for dinner at Causeway Point after the thing. Ate at Banquet with Lissya, Shairah, Aqilah and Eunice. Yum yum. Mee Goreng and Iced milk tea. OMG. Eunice didn't know what was Teh peng (which is iced milk tea in dialect). Even Lissya and Shairah knew. And worse thing is, Eunice was drinking that very drink -.- WE NEED TO RESCUE EUNICE FROM THE ROCK SHE'S BEEN LIVING IN. Imagine. A girl who hates shopping, eating and sleeping. And has NO CLUE who is (super hot/handsome) Cristiano Ronaldo (and yet claims to know what is Manchester United) and what is The All-American Rejects. Sometimes (maybe more than sometimes), i really want to shoot her. LOL. Tempting. But i can't. Because if i do, i'll lose a source of entertainment. We bought Newbie girls' hair clips! I got the white one, Eunice got the blue one, Shairah got the green one and Aqilah got the pink one (expected!). We kept one purple one for Joey :) Gonna use it tomorrow!

Okay. I'm gonna watch all the SYF Videos as well as upload the Malay Dance ones on Facebook. You all are so gonna love me.


30 May 09, 19:49
The Nameless: yeah, who cares if M'sia got swine flying around?!
Charmaine: HAHAHA. TOTALLY!
29 May 09, 21:15
jiaxin: SEE YOU ON SUN? OR WED?
29 May 09, 21:15
jiaxin: LOLLLL YES MISS YOU MISS YOU MISS YOU
Charmaine: SEE ME ON WEDNESDAY! YAY. MUST TAKE A LOT OF UNGLAM PHOTOS AND EVERYTHING OKAY!
29 May 09, 14:23
q: i m newbie among you. and yes, everyone can see your talent. will miss the dance too :)
Charmaine: HAHAHAH. Newbie in shopping. Not newbie in malay dance! Yeah man. So i'm gonna rewatch the SYF video again and again. AND LAUGH AT YOU!
27 May 09, 21:56
shan: And I only got 40% on your quiz; I was like, whaaaaat??
27 May 09, 21:56
shan: Okay again, sorry about the whole can/cannot thing on Sunday; hahah. This is like the billionth time already but still. Haha. We can be YakPak buddies now :D
Charmaine: Hahah. It's okay. And YEAH! WE TOTALLY COULD. Bring for camp? Hahaha. Aww man. You don't know me well enough! :(
27 May 09, 20:59
henrietta: hello cousin :) im not sure i want to go over your place for swimming but with all those schedules a bit hard ah:(
Charmaine: HELLO :) WE'LL WORK SOMETHING OUT!
27 May 09, 20:08
xiang: lol. see you this sat! (:
Charmaine: GLAD TO SEEEEEEEE YOU AGAIN :) I MISS YOU SO VERY VERY VERY MUCH!
27 May 09, 19:13
jiN: what do you mean who cares if malaysia has H1N1? we have it in singapore alr-.-
Charmaine: Yeah man. 4 cases. STUPID LA.
27 May 09, 17:05
gwen: WOMAN! ((: HAHA i shall have to thank you for all that luck you give me. if i ever pass chem ;D
Charmaine: YAY! Okay. All the best for your H3 too okay! And FRAME UP THE CARD!
27 May 09, 16:52
JESSICA: yeahh. on fridays ya? TAKECARE(:
Charmaine: Sure! Except when your dad comes to pick you up. Hahaha.
27 May 09, 13:19
jocelyn: HELLO CHARMAINEEEE (:
Charmaine: HELLO! :D
27 May 09, 09:59
lizhu: i so did not mercilessly push you ok. btw outings are not random, we took time to org it HAHA
Charmaine: Hahah. You so did! Okay. Not random but last-minute. Hahaha.

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams, take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.